many many many many me.

how i love the past.LOVE. yes i said it.

2006-03-13T23:47:00.000+08:00

hi.my latest love is caoge.YES YOU'VE SEEN IT RIGHT.i said love.and pls if you really do want to show off go find another partner to show off to ok.even though i'm referring to none.. but really.you may think i'm just saying these in spite, go think about it..people are just not willing to face the facts for fear of spoiling their own image or what la.at least i'm frank and happy for now with no one in reality who criticises my face everyday except me..but i can tell you..even after my face recovers, my thoughts about this gathering-for-a-show-off-event will still be the same..ok la..maybe not so aggressively la..aiya..afterall it's only human to want to keep showing off themselves after they've become better physically. all i can say is, keep flaunting before your looks deteriorate and make you look like a flaky skinned monster with blemishes. tragically, i believe that's what happened to me.

Handwriting Wizard says:

2006-03-03T23:52:00.000+08:00

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Samantha has no white space or margins on a typical sheet of paper. Samantha fills up every last inch on the top, right, left, and bottom. Hmmm. If this is true, then Samantha has a very aggressive personality toward others and quite frankly lacks a bit of respect for the space and property of other people. I would be surprised if Samantha just comes into someone's home and helps herself to a drink in the refrigerator. This can be both an obnoxious personality trait and it can be assertive and effective in getting what you want. There isn't much fear of getting in trouble here, Samantha finds plenty of reasons to break the rules and get in trouble. (Okay, perhaps when she was younger, not anymore?) Basically, people with no margins are a handful.

Something is incomplete in Samantha's life. She feels frustration relating to her physical needs and desires. Somewhere in her life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Samantha's sexual needs.

Samantha is very self-sufficient. She is trying not to need anyone. She is capable of making it on her own. She probably wants and enjoys people, but she doesn't "need" them. She can be a loner.

Samantha is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Samantha's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Samantha that she wasn't a great and beautiful person, and she believed them. Samantha also has a fear that she might fail if she takes large risks. Therefore she resists setting her goals too high, risking failure. She doesn't have the internal confidence that frees her to take risks and chance failure. Samantha is capable of accomplishing much more than she is presently achieving. All this relates to her self-esteem. Samantha's self-concept is artificially low. Samantha will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because she is afraid that if she makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Samantha to plan too far into the future. She kind of takes things on a day to day basis. She may tell you her dreams but she is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud she speaks, look at her actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Samantha is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.

In reference to Samantha's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Samantha slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Samantha can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Samantha is secretive. She has secrets which she does not wish to share with others. She intentionally conceals things about herself. She has a private side that she intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in her past.

Samantha is sensitive to criticism about her ideas and philosophies. She will sometimes worry what people will think if she tells them what she believes in. This doesn't mean she won't talk, or that she feels ashamed. It merely means she is sensitive to what others think, regarding her beliefs.

Samantha has difficulty making decisions. Her mind changes constantly. She lives in an emotional tug of war. Samantha could be described like a thermometer. Today warm and friendly, yet tomorrow she may be distant and cold, not wanting to be close to anyone. Some research indicates that people with a severe variety in the slant of their handwriting have an inability to tolerate sugar and are suffering the side-effects of too much sugar in their diet. If moods swings are a reoccurring issue, investigate the diet. If Samantha encounters a situation she cannot handle she frequently pulls into herself. She feels her emotions are secure if she is withdrawn. When she has solved the problem she can be very outgoing and again need other people's companionship. Some see Samantha as very moody, but it it would be more accurate to say she has two complete personalities that she chooses depending on the circumstance. This type of person is often hard to understand because no one knows what personality she is exhibiting today. She may not be bothered by something one minute, then the next minute become upset at the same thing. It is very difficult to pin down Samantha's emotional expressiveness.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Samantha doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

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2006-02-24T22:45:00.000+08:00

IT'S ALL I..I.....I.I...I......I.........AIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII....

Shelled

2006-02-24T22:16:00.000+08:00

i've been so busy worrying about what's going to become of my face that i haven't been thinking about the things i'm thinking now. it's the song 保护色. suddenly got feel. or maybe it's just menses around the corner-.0..it's not like the feeling is that bad, could be that i no longer minded the lousy feeling. whoever says time can heal should die. have they got no brains or what?! time can only heal wounds my dear..those kind of wounds you see when someone falls into a drain..what i would say is. time can numb people.and numb them reeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaalllllll well. although most of the time people'll just think that they're healed.

could it be that?

"it's just a few upsetting speeches bobo."

2006-02-24T21:24:00.000+08:00

i have nothing much to say. just looking forward to having normal skin again. i'll try not to let those get me into depression again

Dear face

2006-02-23T12:12:00.000+08:00

I believe you've been experiencing some rash problem. But you do not have to worry. I will cure your skin. And I will need your full co-operation. Please stop getting all upset over your skin getting extra attention and care than you. Afterall, she's newly borned and she will definitely need someone to take care of her right. But how do you expect me to keep her safe from all kinds of dangers when you have been harming her all along? SO, I'd reckon you keep your unhappiness to yourself until your sister gets well. Then perhaps I will consider buying some nice things for you.

The apology.

2006-02-22T21:40:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i really marvel at this love-hate relationship between my skin and me. is it me hating the skin or the skin hating me? what can i say? i'm sorry, face.

2006-02-21T23:19:00.000+08:00

AND AS YOU CAN SEE, i was a very happy person. what say you?
HUH??? WANSIA?

recuperating

2006-02-21T23:05:00.000+08:00

i'm tired and hungry. not that i starved myself or what..just that i have too much gastric juice.i'm dyinnnnnnnnnng.perhaps i'm just pregnant

no fun..at all a

2006-02-20T23:38:00.000+08:00

hating the face is already part of my routine..it's very grosssssssssss!!!!!!!!but!i hope,someday,it will really recover..so that i won't have to feel so mad conscious again.BEFORE EIGHTEEN

JIN

2005-01-07T19:10:00.000+08:00

JINHUANG JINHUANG I MISS YOU!!.

fuckshit

2004-11-21T23:53:00.000+08:00

I CAN'T believe it ok..i helped you pray and yet you're doing this to me? yes..very well.i'll just have to curse you..i'll give you helltime when you see me tml.

bohbohchacha

2004-10-12T14:39:00.000+08:00

hahaha idiot la..

nah

2004-10-08T02:00:00.000+08:00

SO BORED...somebody come and talk to me.junyao rammed me like a dick yesterday.i bet he trained with metal balls in china.

2004-10-07T12:34:00.000+08:00

hi.nice day today..had a great time playing basketball even though i'm only marking.at least i exercised right..better than nth la..i have to do my art ok..really.

2004-10-06T11:57:00.000+08:00

btw..chrisloh's so cute ok how can someone at his age be so extra duper cute..so adorable..i love him alot and mr.hdun also la SO CUTE LA//>.<

shitass

2004-10-06T11:50:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling very sappy..ohman how can i act xl...shitass..anyway just look at people frm 3v2 ohman their english are superb man how did they do it..they're talking proverbs.doh..i feel like i'm from china la..another china kia.SHITASSSSS.i should've just chatted with him just now..now.i'm so bbbbbbbbbooorreeeeeeeedd ok.btw haha to pingping:china kias are god ok.
caaaaaaaaaaann yoooooooooouuuuuuuu feeeeeeeeeellllllllllll my world

so cheeeeekicalon.

2004-10-05T12:01:00.000+08:00

hai.how can i be rushing for art man i can't believe it..to shiyuan: if you happened to see this tell me ok i'll let you smell my feet >.O i hate everybody ok

2004-10-04T21:04:00.000+08:00

and yes..i have three blogs but i like this best..manymanysamanthas.blogspot..how heaVENLY! OHMAN i need a break laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..art stinks AMATHS too and literature too and social studies too..in short..school stinks.but i like chris he's so cute so cute ok he's this cute>.<>

OHMAN!

2004-10-03T23:23:00.000+08:00

HI BABY!!!!